The trip.

The trip certainly made everything seemed better.. :)
Lucky.


Just some pics~ :)
More on fb hehehe Y love it

Part 3.

feelings
couldnt help it.
dont know what to do.
get blackmailed at the same time whilst arguing.
maybe maybe its time.
its time to finish off.
its time to go ...
how long can this last?
family is forever wat about this?
i tragically do not kno ...
someplace in my heart are left with uncertainty
uncertain of the future ... my life... the one...
if there is one thing i could cut of my life ...
i think i would want to cut myself out of this world..
be nothing but air.
air could not think nor worry .. just be nothin seems just perfect.
it doesnt have a heart to go crazy sad loved nor anything at all you can think of.
it wont be hot or cold sick or healthy.
starting of the year till now has been practically bad and unhappy.
everything is full of bad news bad news and more bad news.
wheres the good?
being nothing wont harm anyone you love or not love.

Part 2.

Stresser than ever.
= = just heard from rubbz that its gonna be raining on the whole trip.
Bad starting of the trip.. wat about the rest?
i need some time...
some time alone...
i miss peace.















words cant express how shit i feel now.
falling apart...

How long can u resist?

= = man so so so super fking annoyed.
Everyday nag everyday yell everyday everyday .. every single freakin day.
When u think today is such a good sunny day ... there will alwayz be someone who yells at u
and screws it all up.
Fark man?
even when u wana leave ur juices in the fridge so u can finish it up later.. u'll get yelled at.
What is the mighty freakin big fridge for?
Mahai if i cant even leave my drink in there for a min then wtf is all the cold drinks in there for?
some ppl get to move out and miss out all the freakin yelling.
Plz acknowledge how i feel staying in this freakin noisy house 24hrs.
When will my peace come back again.. = = ...
when? when? WHEN!! WHEN DA FARK ITS GONA COME BACK!!!!!!
im farking annoyed i've been yelled at not almost.. But YES! everysingle freakin day.
Small tiny stuff.. and do u kno how annoying is that?
i wonder why would u wana yell at someone with something so small to argue about..
why make all that farking fuss?
its just something small .. why make such a Big freakin deal?
Im just tired and i have no one to stress it out to! ..
for the past few weeks i've been yelled so many times im kinda tired to TALK!
I even get yell by going to work! (driving situation)
and when thats solve i literally had to ask my Family to pick me up from work..
and what do i get? ...
I get yelled by asking . ( for gods sake how could i fucking kno its gonna be busy that day? )
Fucking hell .. no work .. u'll get fucked..
got work.... u'll still get fucked..
then wat the fuck should u do?
just shut up and be a invisible person is the best.
at least u wont be pressure every fucking second of the day that u MIght .. maybe get yelled again!?
wheres the fucking love come from? yelling?
come on .. not 24 fucking hours okay .
im just so pissed!!!
i have to be pressure how my bf blend into the ppl and be pressured when i will get yelled .. my god.
fucking pressure makes me wana move out .. = =
at least its not 24 hrs fucking yelling ... maybe only 3-4 hours a day.. = =


Im tired. she and he are getting old... = = .. the older they get the more yelling u'll get.

New Year Resolution

1. Find a proper better job so that we can get over this yr without financial problems
2. Save up some Money for Vacation! :) . Thailand? i hope!
3. Improve my studies!!
4. try not to be a FNF lol .. aihz.
5. go to the Beach at least 3 times!!!! .. mY god. 2009 i only went to the beach once!
Thats all i can thing of for now :D but yeah at least theres something right?
hehe HappY New Year! YY

New Year 2010

Hopefully everyone will have a better year especially those who had lotsa car debts in 2009! lol
:) Had fun drinkin till sunrise ....